Narcissistic Oriēntation

The general rule is not to be condescending towards others‬‬ but to be tender hearted, flowing with liquid love towards all. The irony is that, I am sold into, and oriented by the narcissistic doctrines of men.

I am first in all my endeavors, and everything else is secondary, even the God who loves me and gave His son for my freedom. My heart is mine and mine alone.

“Let everything you do be done in love (true love to God and man as inspired by God’s love for us).” 1 Corinthians‬ ‭16:14‬ ‭AMPC

This command is grievous to my self absorbed reality. This yielding is below my high preferences. This gift [of self] is too precious to offer when I need more and more to build my ego account

Do something’s in love, my philosophy. The world is so evil to offer my heart to those who do not deserve it. Yea, the world is evil so I protect my sanity. I secure my heart in solitary places, sowing where I can reap back

They say this is the meaning of wretchedness. They say this is the revival of the self, sponsored by the prince of the power in the air. They say this is a groping in the darkness; obsessed with self. Who will save me from this wretchedness, this blind living?

I fail to practice the good deeds I desire to do, but the evil deeds that I do not desire to do are what I am ever doing. I find a rule, a principle, a law of the serpentine nature ruling within my soul. When I want to reach out to God or man, in love, a numbness draws me back. Oh, I desire in the law of love in my heart but I am a prisoner to the law of sin that dwells in my bodily organs, fulfilling its appetites which are contrary to the law of love

O unhappy and pitiable and wretched man that I am! Who will release and deliver me from the shackles of this body of death? My soul waits in brokenness because I am tired of my flesh.

His voice echoes within the corridors of my empty heart; “Christ will. Christ will, if you let Him be the new law in your heart. In CHRSIT; the treasure of love finds expression in your mingled spirits. In Christ, the law of love find expression in your spirit, as you’ve freely received from the depths of providence

Your love is bankrupt. Your love is inadequate. Your love is conditional. Your love is self looking. His love is an endless oceans, serving through the conduit of regenerated hearts. For the law of the Spirit of the life which is in Christ Jesus, the law of your new nature has freed you from the law of sin and death, the old curriculum that oriented you to death

I now love from the wells of salvation. A well deep and ever flowing, through horizontal and vertical planes. This love is not mine to keep. This love burns like fire within me, so when I keep it I feel like starving myself to death. Not I that lives but I live by the faith of the son of God who loves me and gave His life to me. So I serve with grace in my heart. I am patient with truth in my heart, effortlessly. I forgive with mercy in my soul. I have become a dead man on the altar of love so that love can find expression without restrictions

When I have flipped to self, I go back to love, please, water my gardens. When I have flipped to self, I go back to love, please, water my gardens When I have become legalistic toward all, the weight of my actions always weigh me down and I break, because there is nothing good in my flesh but death

Jesus Nōw | 2021 New Creation Diaries | Let’s Love In His Love

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